Teaching....is it for life?

I don't know when I started really doubting my career choice. Maybe it has always been an itch at the back of my mind. But the last few weeks have caused me to just doubt. My whole career has basically been spent overseas. Do I regret it? No I don't. I have been able to live a life that some people only dream about. I have been able to experience life in a way that some only get to experience via movies or through someone else. But my choice has also caused me to not get job interviews for teaching. I know what sets me apart is my overseas experience. But that is also what is causing me to miss opportunities. Unfortunately when I was in Missouri last I had a temporary mindset. I honestly thought that I was not going to be there long. I thought that I would settle overseas, so I burned bridges as a teacher that I shouldn't have.

I think I am a great teacher. I don't think I am the best teacher. I have a long way to go, but what I struggle with is....is it worth it? Everything right now is going crazy in education....common core vs. No common core. Every teacher must basically have 30 different lessons for 30 different student levels, not to mention the meetings, special events, and committees. Parents who are not teachers have no idea what teachers have to go through...and that causes even more stress. At the end of the day I just have to ask myself if it is really going yo make me happy.

I'm a teacher...I love teaching. I love hearing kids blend sounds, and read for the first time. I love science experiments and sweet notes. I do not love pressure. I do not love people judging me and thinking they could do a better job than me. I do not love being unappreciated. 

So, I have to ask myself...is it really going to be different in another career? 

Or is it just that I'm finally hitting the point in my life when I would rather be a stay at home mom than a teacher? 

I don't know the answer. 

I know I love teaching, but sometimes I have second thoughts.